Yeah…rings. Ya know the kind you wear on your finger. So, who cares what’s so special about rings?
Throughout this unimaginable, inexplainable, and defying journey of a marriage I have definitely done some outrageous things, some good and some not so good. Well this one was one of the crazy for the betterment of us...prayerfully.
I know what God has commanded me to do. I don’t always like it, I don’t always understand it, and I certainly don’t always WANT TO! After feeling as though I had exhausted all the attempts thus far, with perseverance I tried another.
It is a fine line to say I am here, here for good fighting for us, but I am NOT willing to walk IN your sin with you. I am NOT willing to participate in the unhealthy and devastating nature of our current marriage. With a note of raw, hard honesty I removed those wedding bands from my finger and placed them in an envelope and left it for my husband.
It was a blatant statement to profess what God has shown me over these years, that a marriage can NEVER experience its full glory outside of Him, our creator.
Mark 11:24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
For those of you saying, “Doesn’t that kinda sound everything the opposite of committed to your marriage?” “Aren’t you kinda walkin away?” Not at all, my efforts were to convey a whole commitment to Christ, and to live out our marriage in and through Him. Yet there is a key element in the cord of three strands….
Ecclesiastes 4:12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
…..for it to come to fruition it NEEDS the willing participation of three. I was in, God was in, but were did my husband stand? This gave him my clear beliefs, my stance, and the choice to choose. A marriage braided in Christ or a marriage destroying everything in its path.
Needless to say, my aspirations were NOT received well, but scoffed only leaving me to wait, wonder, and to pray.
6 MONTHS have passed without even a whisper or a hint. In fact, things have gotten more bleak and intensely difficult.
TODAY…..this day I got a glimpse, a sneak peak into the work that He is doing right now……inside of my husband. I woke to find my rings laid out in waiting…..waiting to be placed back on the finger of whom they belong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, everything is all better now-right? NO! My marriage isn’t mystically fixed, my troubles are NOT all gone……I have simply gotten the priveledge of the firsthand experience of just what God can do.…..even when you’re not looking.
Is my prodigal husband home, ready and willing to fully dedicate this marriage to Christ? No……..but he is on his way and that….that is a beautiful piece of hope that I will clasp onto. I have had the honor of having some amazing Christians tenaciously praying for this marriage and the God-sized miracle to occur, that total transformation of our hearts. I BELIEVE…..I BELIEVE IN WHAT my JESUS CAN DO.
Some day, maybe next year, next month, or even in the next decade, but one day it is my fervent prayer to be remarried TO MY HUSBAND in a church unto Christ and I think this song will play as I glide down to the alter.
Have you accepted that you are His…..FOREVER? Its a beautiful thing……a very beautiful thing.